january is good for

have not been posting as much lately. things have been intense. a solid mix of bad and good. I have some friends, one in particular who has been a good friend to me for a long time, in ways that I have quietly needed someone to be a good friend to me, and he says that I am "the meetinest person" he knows. not sure if that is true or not, but it's funny when he says it, and it is true, I go to a lot of meetings. I keep up with a lot of people. and of course, some people more than others.been sitting with a number of my friends through some particularly dark, worrisome times. it's made it easy to second guess how much hope any of us have. and then over the weekend I drove to nashville with some old college friends who are remarkably conservative. I was surprised by some of the things they said and talked about - much of it seemed so foreign to me - but I still appreciated the time and the chance to reconnect. and it was interesting to be reminded about the way I used to think about things. seems like another life.I've been taking a lot of photographs, and I've been lining up some pretty exciting photo jobs. more on that as they come; I'm still so surprised by this venture. I enjoy it, and I like pictures, and I am thankful for the opportunity to tell stories and show scenes and people the way I see them. and I say this so much, but it just sort of nags on my soul - at the end of the day, I'm really not a photographer, I'm a musician. and I know nobody really cares about that but I have this constant tension about it and it really does kind of drive me crazy. brooke rolls her eyes at me when I talk about it, which I attribute to her wisdom. but lately, it's been driving me to write an absurd amount of music. I've been recording a number of demos in the video mode of the photobooth application on my mac, and this image comes from one of those videos.I am anticipating a lot of writing and travel in the coming weeks and months. I will try to keep some images and music on this blog, as well as some of the ideas I am constantly mulling for the worstweblogintheworld.and on a lighter note, I have joined a new band where I am playing drums and it is the most fun I have had playing music in maybe several years. and that is not to say that music has not been fun for me, it is really just me saying that playing drums is awesome.